it wasn’t lack of discipline

I lost 2 hours scrolling!

It wasn't just the cycle, it was the obsessive, sabotaging place my brain was at.

It kept throwing random thoughts at me that i didnt even try to fight which caused me to spiral and lose myself in scrolling.

So what did i do - well these thing to start with

Then I tried running, circuit training that didn't work my body felt tight and stiff my nervous system was guarding - I was just exhausted and frustrated but i adapted, i listened to my body and did core, breath work and mobility.

The roundabout my brain was on started to slow with smaller trigger spikes

Then I remembered I have a choice and I reminded myself that doing something you don't want to do everyday helps develop your frontal brain - so that's exactly what I did.

I ended the night with my bible and fell straight asleep.

Next day I was disciplined no alarming snoozing up at 6am

Journal

Bible

Run

No scrolling

And I can honestly say I felt better for it.

It wasn't lack of discipline or even motivation it was my brain sabotaging me while I was exhausted, that's not a permanent thing it's something that's easily rectified.

Sometimes training with purpose = resting.